Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Edens Edge - Amen
Absolutely love this song. I also I for reals found them before they were cool and popular, they didn't even have a video out yet! So happy they got a record deal!
Scary Ass Speeiderrssss
Forgot to tell you all I had a horrible nightmare about talking spiders with human faces that were furry. They wanted me to join their group or something, all I can say is SCARY AS HELL! Creepy little whispering voices, "Come with us." Um hello NO! I's gonna stay right here!
God:Love:Flashlight Tonight & A New Dreamcatcher!
Love,
A very scared Tara Lee!
God:Love:Flashlight Tonight & A New Dreamcatcher!
Love,
A very scared Tara Lee!
TB? Or Not TB? That my friends is a semi serious question..
Beep. Beep. Beeeeeep. BEEEP BEEPBEEPBEEPBEEP!!!!!
That was my alarm clock this morning at about 7:10 a.m. Where was I headed? To get my TB shot read. For those of you who don't know that is tuberculosis. I had to get one for my epic job in childcare. As I got ready in a stumble, yet graceful manner, I realized I couldn't wait to get in my car to listen to the radio. I don't care if I look like an idiot; basically screaming "Gunpowder and Lead" By Miranda Lambert at the top of my lungs. For me that is my moment of happiness and fun! Anyway to the important ish part...
The medical center said it was supposed to open at 8 but as I drove passed it was not open so I went to the healthy McD's to get my favorite chocolate milk and one solitary hashbrown. I filled my belly with the grease and chocolatey goodness and was still sitting in my car, like a stalker, waiting for the lady to turn on the open sign. Which she never did so at about 8:15 I waltzed through those doors demanded a refund on my TB test and to have it read....wait no I didn't that was my daydream my bad. :)
I then proceeded to get my arm read by a lady named Courtney, who told me I was TB free. I breathed a sigh of relief (sarcasm. I knew I didn't have it) and went on my way. Now my biggest decision of the day will be what else I eat or whether to take a shower or a bath. Gotta love having a day off from everything to do homework; but never getting the motivation too.
Peace:Love&Chocolate Milk
Love,
Tara Lee
That was my alarm clock this morning at about 7:10 a.m. Where was I headed? To get my TB shot read. For those of you who don't know that is tuberculosis. I had to get one for my epic job in childcare. As I got ready in a stumble, yet graceful manner, I realized I couldn't wait to get in my car to listen to the radio. I don't care if I look like an idiot; basically screaming "Gunpowder and Lead" By Miranda Lambert at the top of my lungs. For me that is my moment of happiness and fun! Anyway to the important ish part...
The medical center said it was supposed to open at 8 but as I drove passed it was not open so I went to the healthy McD's to get my favorite chocolate milk and one solitary hashbrown. I filled my belly with the grease and chocolatey goodness and was still sitting in my car, like a stalker, waiting for the lady to turn on the open sign. Which she never did so at about 8:15 I waltzed through those doors demanded a refund on my TB test and to have it read....wait no I didn't that was my daydream my bad. :)
I then proceeded to get my arm read by a lady named Courtney, who told me I was TB free. I breathed a sigh of relief (sarcasm. I knew I didn't have it) and went on my way. Now my biggest decision of the day will be what else I eat or whether to take a shower or a bath. Gotta love having a day off from everything to do homework; but never getting the motivation too.
Peace:Love&Chocolate Milk
Love,
Tara Lee
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
How Stressful
Nothing I say is important. However I will write so I'm not as stressed. Nightmares keep coming and getting worse. I still have horrible visions of this guy in a bear outfit trying to get me and a patient (in my dream I'm a nurse.) How can I get them to stop? I feel like it's just going to get worse and worse as my stress keeps piling and piling. I want to live for myself and do things in life without feeling guilty for once.
Every moment of almost everyday is filled with stress. I'm always worrying about what my mother thinks or what God wants me to do. Which don't get me wrong, I don't do enough for God. I wish I could live a better lifestyle, not hate and I wish I could get rid of these bad thoughts. I feel as though I'm never going to be able to achieve my goals, but I keep going for them anyway. I'm so afraid of the future. I just want a job and my own place to live with my boyfriend, he's the only one I feel can make me happy right now. The only one who actually makes me laugh besides my step Granny. These are the best two people in my life who I feel like actually care about me.
All I can do is pray like I always do and hope that God keeps them in my life forever or for just a little bit longer. All I can do. I can do that and just keep trying to make Adam happy like he does for me, which isn't that hard because he is such a good guy and I love him so much.
That's my rant for the night. Guess I know what's important in life for me. I can just ask one more thing; if you have someone in your life that you love, or loved, make sure they know and give them a big hug. If you stopped talking to them; go find them or talk to them because they may need you in their life at the moment. Or it maybe too late to say that and you'll regret not doing it.
Hope:Faith:Pray:Love:Laughter:Gummy Bears:Family:Gummy Bears <-Pretty much everything you need in life right there, well the important things anyway. Because in all honesty, money is just paper, gold is just shiny, friends can be fake but true happiness is the little things in life and who is actually there for you in the long run :) Think about it and you can quote me, Miss Tara Lee on that!
Love,
Tara Lee
Every moment of almost everyday is filled with stress. I'm always worrying about what my mother thinks or what God wants me to do. Which don't get me wrong, I don't do enough for God. I wish I could live a better lifestyle, not hate and I wish I could get rid of these bad thoughts. I feel as though I'm never going to be able to achieve my goals, but I keep going for them anyway. I'm so afraid of the future. I just want a job and my own place to live with my boyfriend, he's the only one I feel can make me happy right now. The only one who actually makes me laugh besides my step Granny. These are the best two people in my life who I feel like actually care about me.
All I can do is pray like I always do and hope that God keeps them in my life forever or for just a little bit longer. All I can do. I can do that and just keep trying to make Adam happy like he does for me, which isn't that hard because he is such a good guy and I love him so much.
That's my rant for the night. Guess I know what's important in life for me. I can just ask one more thing; if you have someone in your life that you love, or loved, make sure they know and give them a big hug. If you stopped talking to them; go find them or talk to them because they may need you in their life at the moment. Or it maybe too late to say that and you'll regret not doing it.
Hope:Faith:Pray:Love:Laughter:Gummy Bears:Family:Gummy Bears <-Pretty much everything you need in life right there, well the important things anyway. Because in all honesty, money is just paper, gold is just shiny, friends can be fake but true happiness is the little things in life and who is actually there for you in the long run :) Think about it and you can quote me, Miss Tara Lee on that!
Love,
Tara Lee
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