Wrecked

With the weather that has occurred today, I will not lie I hate snow. I use to love it. Ever since that night though, you can't say you blame me.

It was last January or so, I don't really pay attention to time; because of the fact that it is always passing and always around. The roads had been cleared off. There was nothing supposed to becoming that night in regards to the weather. It was supposed to be clear.

I went to my friend's house to hang out. All the way in Brighton, MO; which is near Bolivar. It was only a 30 minute drive for me from my house in Walnut Grove. I called my mom to tell her I would be staying later than I had planned and she informed me to get my butt home because it was starting to sleet.

I started up my 92' Dodge Intrepid and made my way back home. The snow and sleet mixture pouring down on my window covering the roads in what looked like salt dumped from a salt truck. I drove slow but came up on a 45 mile an hour curb, I guess I was going about 5 miles too fast. I began to fish tail. Thoughts raced through my mind, even though I didn't think they would in that situation, my mind was clear though in that 15 secs it took; "Don't over correct yourself Tara. Turn that way not this way. Pump your brakes." I was not able to correct my car however.

That's when my car went down an embankment. I corrected it to run into a tree because if I had not I would have kept going down and flipped. As I emerged from the wreck the adrenaline was pumping and then the tears came flooding. I called my mom and told her where I was and her and my step dad were soon on their way, it felt like it took them forever. I called my boyfriend because he was texting me asking where I was and if I was safe. The snow trickled down and my breath of relief showed up in the cold. I was safe, I just couldn't go anywhere.

I sat and looked down the hill that I could have gone even further down. I looked at the tree that had possibly saved my life. I was able to walk away from my wreck with no cuts, the only thing I received was a seat belt burn. I'm lucky and I'm happy I have someone watching over me, cause if I didn't I would have been in a bigger mess or worse. My car was totaled but I was told that that was okay, we would figure that out later. The main thing they were happy about was they still had their Tara Lee, and I had to admit that I was too.

That was my lesson I learned from the weather. You drive slow in the bad, or don't go anywhere when it's worse than bad. Also you need to listen to your parents sometimes.

My Rock :)

I was never a girl who would gush over guys. I only had one boyfriend in high school which only lasted two weeks. I always focused on school, family/friends, and what I needed to do to get where I needed to be. I always figured when God saw fit that I needed someone special he would send them my way

I was on Facebook one day when Adam messaged me. I knew him from high school but had never really talked to him. He simply said hello, that I replied back to but quickly shot him down when he gave me his number. I told him I didn't have good signal where I was, which was a lame lie but I went for it. Adam must have been bound and determined for me to talk to him, messaging me almost every time he saw me on FB. I soon got excited to talk to him and broke down and gave him my number. Few weeks later I was asked out on my very first date. Nervous but excited, we went to watch The Other Guys.

Long story short, Adam managed to get me to fall for him somehow. He's charming like that. We've been together for over a year, but it seems like I've known him longer than that. I can't picture life without him. He's my rock.

I'm gonna brag on him just a little bit, because he deserves to be bragged on. He's a good boyfriend whose already been through so much with me. He was so supportive when I ran my car into a tree after sliding off the road during the winter, which was the scariest moment of my life. I told him if, which he always corrects me and says when.....So I asked him when we've been together for a while, if he would get couples photos done. I love picturs and wanted to get them done professionally. He did this for me as an anniversary present. He set up the appointment, got the photographer, helped me pick what we would wear in them and everything! I also told Adam my bucket list had to go to a Steelers game and to wave a terrible towel there. He found a game both are teams were playing against each other. He got me a jersey for the game with my name on the back and a terrible towel to wave at the game!

I'm a very lucky girl. Lucky to have some one who harassed his way into my life (in a good way) and I'm very thankful that I found someone who will be here for me in tough times and care about me. So Thank you Adam NicHolas :) I don't know what I would do without you!

Karma is a Bitch. Whatevs Hooker

After a lovely weekend of pottery, playing hacky sack and filming; I have one interesting thing about my weekend that epically stood out. We could have saved a girls life.

After I took a pottery class on Saturday; my boy friend and I went to our friends house to shoot some things and work on the script for the youtube show he is doing. Well we didn't get that much done for that and ended up just hanging out at our friends house.

We were outside filming ourselves playing hacky sack when a girl come up out of no where. She began to tell us this story about how she's a run away. Her mom is an alcoholic, she is almost 18 and she needs a ride to her friends house down the street.

We tell her no, because she looked as though she was on some sort of drug and tweeking, she was tapping a take out box constantly, tapping her feet and her eyes were darting everywhere. She then begins to tell us that she's been up for 28 hours. We asked her if she had someone to call, which she replied with a no, that she had no one to call, (if she was going to a friends house she would have had someone).

We told her sorry that we weren't going to aid a runaway. She then put on her winter hat and stormed off saying how she thought we'd be cool and that Karma is a bitch.

We watched her walk down the road and then one of our friends decided to call the cops. The cops showed up. We had gotten what she looked like because we were filming and weren't able to stop the recorder. The police officer told us that she was a reported runaway and went to look for her in the direction that we told them she was headed.

The police found her at a park down the streets (which I'm assuming was her friends house).
So all in all, I don't think Karma is gonna get us for that, maybe those officers can help her get some help to where she can lead a better life.

http://youtu.be/fkg4W-k3eUA

Quit Staring.... It's Rude...

As an individual who usually doesn't care what people think because I have the internal motto, " You're never gonna see these people again anyway." I love trips to Walmart because of this. No matter how old I get I will always randomly tag the person I'm with, say your it and go hide; unless unable to walk...or unless caught by an employee (which has happened). I will always grab a magazine and sit in the floor if someone is taking forever to shop for clothes. I will forever spray all the frebreezes to see which one I like better, which is why my trip to Walmart got blogged about.

If I, Tara Lee, as a consumer decide to use the first frebreeze in the row to "test", oh you can be sure that I will. If they have test perfumes, why not let me test my frebreeze too? They should have one marked "tester". Also I don't care if a lady comes up, walks by me and shakes her head and says, "People never cease to amaze me." Next time I'm gonna spray you....Well probably not...But I will seriously think about it. Don't tempt me. I make Walmart smell pretty and your shopping experience better.

Life is too short to worry about what others think. Express yourself freely and have some fun the next time you are out, cause you never know what day will be your last. Who knows you could even get people to join in a game of hide and seek like I did one time :) It may be dorky but hey they never said life had to be so serious.

So the moral of this blog is: Enjoy the little things in life :) And don't forget to stop and smell the frebreeze..I mean roses.

Oh Blog.

Pretty good day, then a horrible fight. I wish I could just get away, step back, relax and get a massage. People just keep adding to this rage that is building up inside me. I want to scream and throw my phone. I want to break my computer and eat a cookie.

On a brighter note, I got Steak and Shake today. Man do I love those cheese fries! :)

God:Love & Cheese Fries

Love,
Tara Lee

P.S. Gonna get a massage on one of my Wednesday's off! Cha man!

Edens Edge - Amen

Absolutely love this song. I also I for reals found them before they were cool and popular, they didn't even have a video out yet! So happy they got a record deal!

Scary Ass Speeiderrssss

Forgot to tell you all I had a horrible nightmare about talking spiders with human faces that were furry. They wanted me to join their group or something, all I can say is SCARY AS HELL! Creepy little whispering voices, "Come with us." Um hello NO! I's gonna stay right here!

God:Love:Flashlight Tonight & A New Dreamcatcher!

Love,

A very scared Tara Lee!

TB? Or Not TB? That my friends is a semi serious question..

Beep. Beep. Beeeeeep. BEEEP BEEPBEEPBEEPBEEP!!!!!

That was my alarm clock this morning at about 7:10 a.m. Where was I headed? To get my TB shot read. For those of you who don't know that is tuberculosis. I had to get one for my epic job in childcare. As I got ready in a stumble, yet graceful manner, I realized I couldn't wait to get in my car to listen to the radio. I don't care if I look like an idiot; basically screaming "Gunpowder and Lead" By Miranda Lambert at the top of my lungs. For me that is my moment of happiness and fun! Anyway to the important ish part...

The medical center said it was supposed to open at 8 but as I drove passed it was not open so I went to the healthy McD's to get my favorite chocolate milk and one solitary hashbrown. I filled my belly with the grease and chocolatey goodness and was still sitting in my car, like a stalker, waiting for the lady to turn on the open sign. Which she never did so at about 8:15 I waltzed through those doors demanded a refund on my TB test and to have it read....wait no I didn't that was my daydream my bad. :)

I then proceeded to get my arm read by a lady named Courtney, who told me I was TB free. I breathed a sigh of relief (sarcasm. I knew I didn't have it) and went on my way. Now my biggest decision of the day will be what else I eat or whether to take a shower or a bath. Gotta love having a day off from everything to do homework; but never getting the motivation too.

Peace:Love&Chocolate Milk

Love,
Tara Lee

How Stressful

Nothing I say is important. However I will write so I'm not as stressed. Nightmares keep coming and getting worse. I still have horrible visions of this guy in a bear outfit trying to get me and a patient (in my dream I'm a nurse.) How can I get them to stop? I feel like it's just going to get worse and worse as my stress keeps piling and piling. I want to live for myself and do things in life without feeling guilty for once.

Every moment of almost everyday is filled with stress. I'm always worrying about what my mother thinks or what God wants me to do. Which don't get me wrong, I don't do enough for God. I wish I could live a better lifestyle, not hate and I wish I could get rid of these bad thoughts. I feel as though I'm never going to be able to achieve my goals, but I keep going for them anyway. I'm so afraid of the future. I just want a job and my own place to live with my boyfriend, he's the only one I feel can make me happy right now. The only one who actually makes me laugh besides my step Granny. These are the best two people in my life who I feel like actually care about me.

All I can do is pray like I always do and hope that God keeps them in my life forever or for just a little bit longer. All I can do. I can do that and just keep trying to make Adam happy like he does for me, which isn't that hard because he is such a good guy and I love him so much.

That's my rant for the night. Guess I know what's important in life for me. I can just ask one more thing; if you have someone in your life that you love, or loved, make sure they know and give them a big hug. If you stopped talking to them; go find them or talk to them because they may need you in their life at the moment. Or it maybe too late to say that and you'll regret not doing it.

Hope:Faith:Pray:Love:Laughter:Gummy Bears:Family:Gummy Bears <-Pretty much everything you need in life right there, well the important things anyway. Because in all honesty, money is just paper, gold is just shiny, friends can be fake but true happiness is the little things in life and who is actually there for you in the long run :) Think about it and you can quote me, Miss Tara Lee on that!

Love,
Tara Lee